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Okay so today I chipped a tooth. Just a little off the top of one on the lower right side, not too far back. It's a tooth that had a filling. I am scared that more of it will chip off or something. It doesn't hurt (yet) and yeah. I don't mind pain at all, but I have a phobia (my only one) of losing teeth or things happening to my teeth at all.

My question is, if I go the dentist, what will they do? I am thinking they will cap it if anything. And if so, does getting a cap hurt?

Ugh it sucks. I wish my teeth/mouth were just as insensitive as the rest of my body (I'd rather get a piercing or tattoo than have anything done to my teeth).

Thank you for anything you can tell me about this :)

I just signed up for Last.fm and it's pretty amazing. I don't know why I didn't do this sooner. You get to pick a bunch of musicians you like, and it makes you a neverending playlist based on those people and people who sound similar. Or you can click a genre and it will play things from that, or you can select several genres and it will play things from all. It's nuts. I have heard so many good things. So many new things. It's crazy.

Anyhow, last night I had some really weird dreams. I don't even think I could begin to explain. Life right now feels like I am still dreaming, like something is still going to happen, something strange like in a dream. I don't like this, I think it's all because I am sick and fevered.

Man.

I hate being stuck in this limbo. Really wanting to quit smoking but for some reason I can't just STOP buying cigarettes and smoking. My throat really hurts, I can barely stand to smoke, I don't even enjoy it one bit. Now it makes me lethargic and start to choke, but I can't stop. It's ridiculous. I am seriously considering trying those Nicoderm patches I found, even though I have only heard bad things about them, they might be the only thing to save me at this point.

Any quitters want to share some quitting tips?

I know I've complained probably a dozen times about this before... But I hate my bank. They are holding yet another check when they said they wouldn't. I couldn't convince the stupid teller bitch otherwise. So I decided. I'm not putting my money in the bank anymore. I am going to use this money from this check (when I can...) and then leave the account with one dollar, they can fucking have it. I'm done.

I sincerely hope not. Though I am sore everywhere. All day I was getting random sharp pains, in my face, back, etc. My eyeballs hurt. They feel swollen. I hope I just slept wrong. I also heard that there is a flu bug going around at my work. I sincerely hope I don't get it again. Last time I felt like I was dying. Ughhh.

I feel like I have a lot to do, and I know that I do, but I can't bring myself to do anything.
I am going to go take a bath and turn in for the night a little early.

Had a strange dream last night/this morning, I only remember one part. I was, somewhere I can't remember, and I found this school project. A persuasive essay. Entitled "The Running Man VS Running Water" and I have no clue what that means, it's a very strange concept and makes no sense.

Anyhow last night I stabbed a thumb tack into the joint of my right index finger. My trigger finger, for a computer mouse, PS2 controller, etc. It hurts really fucking bad. Andrew was holding it, and I like thought it was something else I guess coz I tried to slap his hand away and instead jabbed the entire point of the tack into my finger. Yes, right on the joint, all the way in. For about 10 minutes it was numb, then had this feeling kind of like a headache right in the top part of the finger, now it's sore and stiff. Probably not a good thing.

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So for now, until I have a ride to the store, I am going to play more Grand Theft Auto San Andreas (addiction) and help Wendie with her new Livejournal layout.

Hope everyone's good.

Something about Vox makes me want to post a dozen entries in one day, even if I have nothing to say. Hence this short message to you.

I finally slept in. I feel better rested than usual, that's all I needed I guess.

Last night nothing seemed to go my way. Shit the whole day didn't go my way at all. I don't know why. But it's a new day and I am optimistic. The only thing I am worried about... Andrew decided he's going to quit smoking now instead of waiting to buy the Nicorette patches/gum. And that probably means I have to quit too. I don't know if I am ready. I don't know if I can unless I really want to. I guess it's time to buy some distractions, lots of chips and candy and all the junk food I want, coz I know if I distract myself it might go easier. I think it's like prying a very important item (for lack of any better word/idea) from a dead person's hand. I like my cigarettes. I would rather ween myself off, cut down slowly and then stop. But whatever, we'll see. Yeah? (Mike, I need your expertise in quitting smoking. Help?)

Anyway, it's really cold today and the gloomy weather always feels ominous to me, and I don't like it one bit. Ugh.
Let's just hope today is good for everyone :)

Sooner.

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And I miss it. Adam Baldwin. Jayne Cobb. One of the best characters in Firefly/Serenity. And where am I? Sitting at home on Myspace, playing Grand Theft Auto San Andreas, eating pizza, smoking too many cigarettes, doing nothing of importance. And one of my heroes is less than 2 miles away from me. What the hell.